Mentor Meeting on Pi Day

  It hasn't been a long time since the last mentor meeting so there wasn't too much to discuss during this one. I came in during 6th period because I had a test 7th. So first of all, regarding the Saturday class, I haven't really decided anything. I kept saying that I don't know, and that maybe I'll go, but only for the reason that I'm expected/hoped to be there. I have said "I don't know" so many times during this project that it's annoying even me. Ms. Lord says that I really shouldn't be doing that. I shouldn't be unsure, but rather, I should figure out my own path, because no one's going to be there to set the guidelines for me. Honestly, I don't know  Scratch that, I do know, I just dondhsdjkghsklgs I think I'm going to need to like, set a rule for myself where I can't say "I don't know".
   During this mentor meeting, I also told Ms. Lord of my plans to end my lessons with Mrs. Miller due to the fact that I want to take on the challenge of working with myself and keeping myself on track. However, what would be my plan to keep myself learning? How would I be enforcing learning?

Mentor Meeting Feedback

   So today's meeting, according to Mrs. Lord, was one of the most important mentor meetings thus far, because I've come to realize that I'm encountering problems with myself and not just with piano playing as a topic in general. There are two, with the first one being that I can't read sheet music and I can't seem to get it straight no matter how hard I work at it. Mrs. Lord suggested that I try a different approach, but somehow I don't find that an appealing option. Maybe I'll just work in this manner for a couple more weeks and then decide something? And another thing is the Saturday morning class. My inability to decide on whether or not to go could be because of stage fright, or something else... Am I afraid of feeling inferior to all the other younger students that are going to be there? Or am I just not prepared yet? What is it?

Monday's Lesson #5

   After repeatedly playing "The Black Swan" and "Hamster Chase", I have finally gotten both of them under control. There are still a couple of errors here and there, but it's moving along :)
   Mrs. Miller says there's a Saturday morning class next next Saturday where students play for each other. I'm not quite sure if I want to take part in it yet because Mrs. Miller said it was optional. I'm not exactly sure if I'd fit in since most of Mrs. Miller's other students are rather young. And that is the reason why she didn't enforce it on me and gave me a choice. She says that I could play either "The Black Swan" or "Hamster Chase", or even both. Early I had said that I wouldn't be afraid of an audience, but perhaps I actually am? I don't know, for some reason, I just don't want to do it. However, I'll practice as if I am, just in case something last minute happens and I have to perform. Mrs. Miller said it would be good for me because it'd give me an incentive to practice "harder", but... well, we'll see.